“People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life. I don’t think that’s what we’re really seeking. I think that what we’re seeking is an experience of being alive. . . so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.”
“The experience of being alive . . . so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.” Those words really struck me as I was reflecting on my recent trip North to make a turkey dinner for my disabled brother, Mark.
Visiting Mark is always bittersweet. Several brain injuries have left him in need of 24 hour care. Earlier this year he suffered a major cognitive and physical decline following a bout with shingles and receiving the shingles vaccine. My heart hurts as I watch my sweet, strong, vibrant brother fade away into an invalid who has little control over the course of his life.
This trip, instead of putting my head down and jumping head first into the pain of the continuing loss of Mark, I said yes to Diane, when she suggested that we take the train into New York City to see a Broadway show. For the hours that I rode the
train into the city, hiked up Broadway past lighted Christmas trees and all the sights of the busy city, and watched my first Broadway show, I was able to put the painful emotional and mental clutter of my life aside and be in the rapture of the having new fun experiences.
I work with people who have volumes of painful, paralyzing, physical clutter. My clutter, by comparison, is mental and emotional, and has limited my ability to let go and have fun. Going into New York City was an opportunity to separate myself from the clutter of fearful, limiting beliefs and sad feelings to just enjoy the pleasure of being alive and having new experiences. I left New York City wanting more. Not necessarily more Broadway shows, though that would be wonderful, but more relief from the clutter that blocks me from allowing myself new experiences and moments of joy.
Clutter, whether physical, mental or emotional, blocks you from experiencing the rapture of being alive. What can you do today to release those blocks? My friend, Diane, offered me support, encouragement, and a way to let go of my blocks for a wonderful evening of fun. What support do you need to to move forward to clear your clutter?